Perfect Girls

People say that perfect girls only exist in movies, but that's not true is it? 

I look around and I see girls with perfect bodies. Perfect clothes. Perfect faces. Perfect hair. Perfect make up. Perfect cars. Perfect home lives. Perfect houses. Perfect grades. Perfect relationships. They are seamlessly perfect. 

So why can't I be perfect?

I'm ashamed to post a picture in a bikini. I'm ashamed to post any unfiltered pictures because of my face. I have more relationship problems than Romeo and Juliet. I'm barely happy. I can never tell when someone in my family is going to break and start a screaming match. I'll never be comfortable wearing what I want. I'll never have a decent car. I'll never have the grades I need. 

I am the opposite of perfect. 

So I ask God why? Why can't I be like these other girls? The problem is He never answers me. He shuts me out. Doesn't listen to me. I'm not even good enough for God so why would I ever be good enough for anyone else? 

 

(Written on June 30th, 2014 at 7:45 pm)